For the most part as of late, I awake each day and express my gratitude for another 24 hours affording me the opportunity to love big, share joy and create beauty or some variation of the three, for this triad is my purpose here and also keeps me full to overflowing every moment I breathe.
I never really know though what my purpose is going to exactly look like as the day unfolds but as I’ve aged I’ve gotten more comfortable with that inevitability even if I do continue to make plans for how I will live each day – lest I open my self to being driven insane with fate ruling my life. I do believe I am as much a master of my own fate as I am the pawn in a universal game of chess where I am playing against the universe….I’m really not sure how I would define this in terms of some pat metaphor but there ya have it.
So I not only embrace, but in whatever way I can, love the unknown. It is after all neither good nor bad, simply what is…and reminding myself that makes it easier to choose between fearing it and the former, not that I haven’t had my moments of trepidation (and rightfully so!)
I recently took a journey with a member of the fungi kingdom to explore more of my own unknown – for I believe a part or parts of me have cordoned off in my self other parts of me (which I can only know when I am ready) for my own protection and I did indeed have a concern that what I would find could somehow overtake the what I feel to be larger part of me that is driving my being. However, curiosity and love played their parts accordingly in overshadowing any doubts that arose and it was an interesting revisiting to my self that I hadn’t experienced in a good 25+ years.
What I found was not unknown, rather, just untended – and as I moved through a slowing down to hold and work through what I had regarded previously as being fallow soil, the digging in with my head, heart and hands revealed knowledge that was more of a remembering than anything new or intimidating.
Now, as part of the process I’ll suggest for you today I realize there are a variety of ways to access parts of our selves outside of plants or fungi and honor that for some, exploring the unknown within us can be too daunting a task to endeavor to….today. But, if you are wanting to understand something about your self in relation to your life or where you’re headed (or came from) then perhaps today sometime when you’re feeling open to your self then take a half hour or so, more if you can/want, and be with your self in a quiet way, perhaps in a natural space or just somewhere that distractions are at a minimum, and open your mind to it self and what may have been previously unknown to you about some part of you or your life and see what comes up. Write about it after if you want to remember/refer to the revelation later.
With or without the assistance of anything else. For you are ultimately the one in control of you and your relationship to the unknown.
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